Three Years. #ThisIsForJosh

Three years ago tonight, I snuggled with my boy and fell asleep sooner than I meant to for the last time. I woke up a few hours later and had to watch his sisters’ world crash down around them, knowing they’d be going home without their brother and best friend. We left Children’s Hospital without our boy on the oppressively hot afternoon of July 7, 2014. I don’t know how we made it the few blocks to the hotel without collapsing, but once we did, we couldn’t leave. We couldn’t bring ourselves to go home yet without him. It hasn’t gotten easier to be without him. Three years is a long time, but a sound, smell, or glimpse can bring me right back to the hospital. And I still wake up some mornings shocked by my reality. Three years… I look at his best friends and imagine him standing there. He was just hitting a growth spurt- how tall would he be now? His friends horse around and tell jokes, and I can hear him cracking up. We’re lucky to have his friends and their families around us so much. They are our lifeline, really. The boys have become surrogate brothers to our girls. They and their parents are like family to us now. And they’re a big part of the foundation we started in Joshua’s memory. When a child dies, the love you have for them doesn’t… so we put our love for Josh into Joshua Kaye Foundation and every year since we lost him, from 7/7 through his birthday on 8/3, we ask friends, family, and our community to join us in acts of kindness.

The acts can be big or small, serious or silly. We’ll be sharing ideas and specific group opportunities on our Facebook page and on Instagram. If you decide to join us, please share your acts of kindness on social media with #ThisIsForJosh.

Thank you for all of the love and support,

M ❤️